Emotions.

Just trying to suppress my feelings
& trying hard to put on a brave front
so that no one will be worried about me...

All I thought that I'm able to face it bravely...

But in actual fact,
I'm just trying not to think about it,
distracting my mind,
so that I could control the tears from flowing out.

It was all like a dream,
it's time to wake up now & face the fact...
To be brave to face it,
& hopefully to have a solution for this situation...

But whenever I think of it,
memories keep on flooding in...
I really couldn't control myself any longer,
& just broke down & cry...

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Life is really strange.
Most of the time,
the things that you didn't really hope for happens MORE than the things that you hope for...

All alone now,
How I wish I could be there...
But all I could do is just hide myself in a secret place,
where no one searches for me,
& hoping that no one hears the sobbing of my heart...